how do you trust when betrayal and disappointment are your closest companions?
when your deepest memories are tainted with rejection,
when your scars and wounds are still fresh from the backbiting,
how do you trust?
when you are told that iron is meant to sharpen iron,
but they stabbed you with the very side that you sharpened.
how do you love when misery and heartbreak are the only friends you have?
when you opened your heart to possibilities but were left hanging on a ledge,
abandoned and alone.
how do you lay your life down for your brothers and sisters when the roots of your family tree are withering away?
poisoned and damaged, damaged like you, or you like the tree,
either way you feel damaged beyond repair.
the mother took the fruit from this tree and her son who was once able – was no longer abel to live,
the first mother, doing something as unnatural as a rose growing out of concrete, burying her own son,
how was she able to love the son who took away all that made her abel?
how do you forgive when the memories are embedded in your mind?
when all that they are is marred by all that they’ve done,
when the tears flow like streams and you don’t know how you will make it through,
may you be reminded of the peace and love that God’s given to you.
“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.” – Colossians 3:12-14